The First Time : 5 Things

I was catching up on one of my favorite TV Series the other day.  Glee!  Anyhoo, I was watching an episode when some characters where going through their awakening sexuality and wanting to share intimately that side of them with their partner.  I kept on bringing my baggage into the equation with stuff like, you are only 17 people!  What do you know and is it not too early on in life to take that kind of plunge?

It got me thinking that for some of us, our first time was to be forgotten and for some, our first time was all special and amazing when we look back.  Some CrazeeBee thoughts:

1. The one thing I would teach my kids is to make choices that they are comfortable with.  There is probably no way I could ever stop them from experiencing what they need to for their path and as scary as that would be for me, the only thing I could ever do for them is try my best to make them see all sides of the equation.  As long as they are comfortable they can source the information they need to be safe and make an empowered choice then I have done all I could do
2. There is something to be said with knowing someone on a level that makes you feel safe to open up to share that intimate part of you.  That is probably the scariest part of sex for some.  Exposing that deep vulnerable side and having someone experience that
3. It definitely is a reflection of how much you trust yourself and love yourself to just be as you are.  Going into something that is meant to be felt and experienced and staying in your head the whole time judging yourself, the situation and the guy just speaks to where you are with loving yourself
4. There is the reality for some where it is just clumsy and awkward but I can bet when there are strong feelings of love and caring involved, it is looked back with love and fondness 
5. There are some that go there when they are not ready for the consequence of what comes after sharing that with someone, or go there for reasons other than what is right for them and what  makes  them comfortable.  There is no way to turn back time, but there is a place of choice to listen more to what speaks from the inside and go ahead with choices that truly sit within power within one's self.  It is a mistake but one where you can do the work and forgive yourself and move on to open up for someone special.  The first time has its place but sharing deeply and connecting with someone is always available to all on this earth, no matter your background and mistakes!

Afterglow

Something weird is happening lately.  I am noticing background music when I watch TV.  I am enjoying the music more than the actual scene.  This song is simply a sexy one.  Can you see yourself simply cuddling up with your partner and snogging.  When last have you just kept it simple? Just you and your boo?  May this week inspire some cuddling and snogging.  Some old school loving! Yum!

CrazeeBee Love : Luca's Restaurant

Awesome Food, Good Friends and Honest Sharing are always a good combination.  I am a huge fan of Luca's restaurant.  There is something special about it's vibe and food.  There is a love that I can appreciate about it.  It also speaks so much of all things Italian.    A culture of being in the moment and enjoying that moment to the highest quality possible.  Love it.

I love the House Salad.  Yes it is a salad and it rocks!  My other favourite dish is the Tagliolini Incazzati.  Yum Yum!

Link below for your enjoyment if you live in JHB.  Highly recommend it : http://www.dining-out.co.za/member_menu.asp?MemberID=1165

5 Things To Note About Surrendering

I am a typical A-type, outcomes based, instant gratification, control freak.  The art of allowing and surrender is such a stretch for me most of the time.  But one thing that I have been open to of late is that there is a better less stressful way to get what I want and that it is worth testing and trying out this surrender thing.  Some things I  have picked up along my journey with starting to get comfortable with the art of surrender :

1. There is a bigger picture on any subject you have in your life.  You might not understand today or now but there is an opportunity to get deeper understanding and a bigger perspective.  Surrendering to something  bigger opens you to take in a deeper perspective and see it differently
2. Think of a flower and learn from how it is able to just be.  It is most beautiful when it blooms.  And it blooms to take in the sun in all its glory.  That is something like surrendering.  When you open your heart and take in the glory, love and power that is showered from that higher wiser power, you can operate at your most beautiful and powerful
3. You have to be willing to drop your current story on a subject and open up to curiosity to explore and have a story be told to you.  The purpose of experiences is to feel them and assimilate them and move onto to something new to evolve and expand who you are.  Not get stuck on one particular experience or set of experiences.  Be willing to give over your current story and ask to see it a different way that serves you and your happiness
4. The Universe is really on your side if you allow it.  It simply grants your wish!  So check what you wishing for.  And that is linked to your most  powerful and consistent stories
5. Take note when things simply work out without you having to do much other than just be there to receive or go with the ride.  That is the universe at work and you being in tune with the flow of life.  Some great validation what surrender brings you

Joyful Joyful

I grew up christian and I will say when I was younger, I did not appreciate the beauty and depth of love that christianity does speak of.  I do see that now.

This week's song is really about surrendering to the higher power our struggles and pain.  It is surrendering it to a wisdom, intelligence and love that can take what you see and feel and transform that.  So take your pain and surrender it and ask for the wisdom to see it differently with deeper understanding and an empowered view.

Have a week of wisdom and seeing through the eyes of love!

Joyful Joyful, Lord we adore Thee

God of Glory, Lord of Love

Hearts unfold like flowers before Thee

Hail Thee as the sun above

Melt the clouds of sin and sadness

Drive the dark of doubt away

Giver of immortal gladness

Fill us with the light of day

CrazeeBee Gone Fishin

Just a note to say sorry for no posts!  Life has been chaotic but as a wise person has told me, in that chaos comes the birth of something new.  There is huge change and chaos when we are born, so going with the notion that new wisdom and experiences lie ahead of me.  So expect to see some posts coming up.  I am back in the swing of things.

Mwah