Waiting To Die : 5 Things

OMG! I have no idea what is going on with my life but the craziness is insane.  I really just could not keep up with anything and find a space to breathe and be in my centre to make the best choice for my next steps.  It was like I was not allowed to get to that space to get my sanity.  The distractions were huge and so blatant!  It was in this state that I could see how distracted we can really get are as humans.  It is the very few that step up to their happiness and growing their understanding of themselves deeper that know where distractions can lead you to!  To a space where you simply "Waiting To Die"!  Some CrazeeBee Thoughts :

1. You know you are heading for this when you on a constant need to escape life!  Some do it via tons of TV, overeating, excessive partying or drinking or fear of being alone!  The day you decide to stop and face what you trying to escape, is the day you open the door to transformation
2. The pain in your life will increase and increase and increase till you cannot get away from it and you are forced to deal with it!  Life has a way of getting your attention whether you think you are actually getting away from whatever scares you
3. You actually get to a point where you hurt those around you!  Not being able to get yourself happy eventually takes it toll on the ones that love you
4. No matter what, you can turn it around when you decide to start being aware and use what scares you to start understanding yourself deeper.  You always have that power.  And it starts small.  Simply being happy that your next breathe is taken care of now in this moment, means God cares!  You can work with that and build on it
5. When you see this in others, know that your happiness does come first.  You cannot change someone, all you can do is create the space or support for them to make the choice for change

One thing, I am understanding more and more this week, is that we are USELESS to the world when we are USELESS to ourselves.  Service really does start with being able to give without it destroying the beauty and love that is within you.  It benefits all when you truly give from a whole place.