Song Crush : Calling Wiseman Nos 1 . . .

I love dancing wild to this sexy sexy song. Dedicated to Men that makes us feel all good! Looks like it is men on the brain today! ooooooohh la la

Song Crush : Boys, Boys, Boys - What wonderful creatures . . . . .

,I am loving this song of late. Just fun and all about having fun with the boys. I am clearly in the dating mood. Already have 2 dates lined up and both were rather effortless in getting. So I am excited to meet new men and just have fun. That is as simple as I want to keep the agenda for now. Mwah!

My Favourite verse "Don't like those baggy jeans but I'm gonna like what's underneath them" ;-)

Tit Bit : Alice in Wonderland

I am a huge fan of TV when it allows for inspiration. One has to give it a place in this world. I see it as a medium essentially made up of mankind's creativity. There are some with awesome messages and some with the message just as it is. It does not require a deeper meaning. It is simply giving into the shallow side and having it expressed and enjoyed by others.

So I watched Alice in Wonderland release by Disney. I loved it! from the point of view that it is all about using your imagination. And for me it is a great message to us all. We are blessed with an imagination to conceive the start of a reality we find blissful. Imagination sows the seeds to grow what we need. It is in our life that we create the environment and soil to make what we conceive grow.

So as Alice so eloquently put it as she faced a DEMON of note . . . . . . . . . . . "The impossible, Sometimes I believe at least 6 impossible things before breakfast" . . . . .. That is how I remember it! Forgive me if it is not exact but you get what I mean.

So my dearies - here is to the impossible and believing at least 6 impossible things before breakfast . . . . . xoxo

Oops . . . . Happy Birthday Crazeebee Livin!

OMG!!!!!! It just dawned on me that my blog has gone through a birthday!  It was just over a year ago that I started this blog at a beach house in Cape Town on one of my getaways.  It is funny how this blog thing all started for me.  I had the most amazing friends at university.  I truly believe that statement that friends you make at varsity are friends for life.  The lessons I learnt in life and about me knowing them was priceless.

Then we started working and my friendship bubble burst.  Some moved to other cities and other countries and I felt the void of not having those connections.  So in an effort to stay connected to them, I started a monthly newsletter all about what I was getting up to and what made my life good or bad at the time.  I always pictured us in a place chilling with good alcohol, food and each other's company.  And so this newsletter went on for 5 years!

It was in February 2009 that my spiritual coach suggested that I start blogging as she and I started seeing how much joy I got from connections and making a point of view, an idea, a element of truth available and accessible!  That is what I got from my newsletters to my closest friends, they felt connected and sometimes, I made them think about something differently or bring some laughter to their lives.

So today I remember why I started this blog.  To bring on connections all across the globe by sharing who I am and how I walk through step by step this thing called life.

To Crazeebee Livin, with love and blessings

xoxo

Song Crush : Making Peace with what is in front of you . . . . . . .

I do not fully understand what about this song makes me sooooooo attracted to it. I find it beautiful and get a sense of making peace with what is in front of you. I get the feeling of moving forward and taking that next step. Enjoy . . . . . . . . xoxo

Song Crush : To be Good Just as I am . . . . . . . .

I was at a Kelly Clarkson concert last night. She was amazing and respect to her great talent. She did some covers of songs she loved and this was one of them. I love it and could never quite get into the song as it meant allowing to be good with just simply being and not doing. Wonder how many people can just be and not do?



Anyhoo, enjoy! I love this song . . .

Tit Bits : Takin Back My Love . . . . . .

I had the most wonderful Saturday. On reflection as to why, I realised it was a Saturday drenched with NO EXPECTATION! How heavenly! It was just me with no role to play (brother, son, professional, leader, bait for potential husband) or no need to be anything else than what I was in that current moment.

When I look back at what I did when I was all with myself with no expectation, it was truly awesome to see what I gravitated towards in terms of activities. Dreaming, blogging, dancing to music, breathing purposefully, cooking, spending time having healing and insightful conversations, empowering others! These were just some of the themes that I spent my time doing.

The day was truly awesome and rewarding in ways I can't really explain. So today, as I feel rather reflective after an awesome day spent in bliss, with me and with loved ones, let's look for moments, periods or a day in our weeks to just be without expectation. Allow that freedom to just be you with no duty, mask or doing to fulfill an expectation whether self imposed or imposed by others.

Even if you just start off with an hour a week where all you do is just be with no distraction of duty calling.

Just a thought I had last night as I peacefully and with a huge smile entered dream land . . . . . .

xoxo

Digesting the New . . . . . Breakaway . . . . .

What would you say if I said that we all wear "Eye Lenses". They can serve as quite powerful assets or liabilities depending on where we find ourselves in life. A very interesting tool that helps us navigate the territory we call life. Heavily backed up by perception, insight, judgement and belief! I am constantly surprised by how MINDSET guides and allows the quality of experience we have in life.

This became very apparent to me of late as I see new doors opening before me. And as I make the choice to step through, I am realising how letting go of certain ideas of how I see myself do not serve me and that the new awaits. By new I speak of seeing myself and life in a NEW LIGHT!

Lately, I have noticed at HOW I DIGEST NEW IDEAS / CONCEPTS that impact me and my life!

This takes me back to my teens. I lived in a small town and knew I was different or at least not meant to live the life that I saw my community subscribe to! At 17 I realised that it was my attraction to men that was more than just me being their friend! Somehow I knew that all would be well when I left my home to study in the big city and gay mecca in South Africa. Cape Town if you did not know!

I dropped the view I had that I was a freak, bad or did not belong and that it was ok to let that part of me come out into the light and be real / tangible to me and the world! That door definitely opened and I am so grateful to this day that I stepped through it. I now see myself a person who just happens to love sharing himself with men. It still means that fundamentally I am a man, a son, a brother, a lover, a great professional , basically ME!

A reason why I love watching Oprah interviewing the stars. When they tell their stories of how they made it, there is an element of "luck" and being in the right place at the right time. But what is sooooooooo common between all of them is their MINDSET! How they see the see world and how that has worked out for them. A mindset which was a deep belief which lead to powerful expectation and then it happened.

I believe this is true for me as well. My mindset and powerful belief and expectation made me decide and convince my parents that Cape Town was it. Being ok with being gay lead to a wonderful experience at varsity and has followed me into the workplace where I can me and be respected for my talent rather than the way I live my life. Delicious indeed.

I am seeing more and more as layers peel away in me understanding me how mindset feeds deep powerful expectations. What intrigues me more is how you work that back from powerful expectation to mindset! Wonderful that you chose different simply by using free will, imagination and desire! But I suppose easier said than done?!?!?! Or is it really that difficult to dream? I noticed this concept when I asked one of mentees what turns her on and makes her happy! As confused as she was about life and herself, she could in 2 sentences tell me what it was she aspired to! We know, it is making it real that is our challenge!

Bringing it back to me, I am faced with opportunities from all angles that make me very very happy yet overwhelmed by all the limitless opportunities that are there to be crafted for my benefit. The abundance scares me sometimes. But that is a whole other topic for debate.

My career has taken off and I can see how it is beginning to soar all in the people I have to engage with lately, the volume of people that now follow me , moving to a more strategic focus and being trusted to guide / polish important business decisions and now looking to shape, bottle and sell VALUE! My personal life is also making shifts, I am feeling sexier as the days go by and I notice how I am getting different reactions as I go out there, my friendship circles are becoming soooooo diverse and delicious in what I am exposed to in terms of mindsets, beliefs and ways of living. I see how there is a need to breakaway from limiting mindset in how I live my day to day life and to step into the world that is before me which is the sole basis of the Project Bliss : Coming Home to CB. I am putting myself in a position to look at the way I live and if it was a "reality show", would I be front row and proud to have played a part in it!

Anyhoo, all I really wanted to say is that imagination / desire / fantasy / dreaming is there to bring you to the door that you can step through to experience what simply makes you happy and feels good. Look at how you digest new ideas and concepts that get presented to you!

It could be something as simple as seeing yourself (in career) operating at your boss's level. Does it sit comfortably, does it excite you, could expect that you would rock at that? For us single career slaves, seeing yourself as a loving, committed husband/wife that has all the time for their family to share those precious loving moments? Even more scarier ideas that you are good enough just as you are right now! That you are capable to create the life you desire and that all the tools, ability and knowledge are already with you!

So open up, embrace, digest and simply breakaway from your current level in life! I am seeing that when your mind is in the right place, inspired action is rather easy as your luck (Universal guidance and protection) is with you . . . . The beauty of what my life is today validates that to me xoxoxo

Tit Bits : Frozen . . . . . Calling Mr Flinstone!

You would have noticed a slide show of Eddie Cibrian. I think that he is sooooooo sexy! I think it was that episode of Dirty Sexy Money where he did that towel scene that just reminded me what a hunk he is. And seeing him on Ugly Betty later was just all too delicious! Anyhoo, I have realised that it is time to start opening up to men. I can see my wedding day funnily enough, but it is the path to that I am interested in for now. My wedding day will come and boy will be something to remember. I am the go BIG type of guy! hehehehehehe

Anyhoo! So I have been surrounding myself with Eddie images and having quite a few pleasant mind trips with Eddie playing the leading man in my blissful and deliciously scripted dreams. I am figuring that it is a matter of time before an Eddie lookalike or somebody that reminds me of Eddie shows up! Right?!

I can vouch that on two occasions it did happen which did really get me thinking, this thing could actually work.

So I was in Cape Town at one of my favourite hang outs. It is like a Sunday ritual for the locals to take to this place and enjoy good food made from love and just chill and catch up. I was sitting on a bench and my pals on the hay. And then he approached, my Eddie lookalike! He walked right up to me and asked me if the seat next to me was taken! I was like it is free (outward reaction) and OMG! Jackpot Universe (all on the inside!!!). As I started figuring out what to say, he called to someone and then she came. His girlfriend!!!!!!! Anyhoo, I left that experience in shock at how similar he was to Eddie. It was looking at his younger brother!

Then there was breakfast with my closest mates (Sex and the City gals) at my most favourite hangout for breakfast over great conversation. What was funny is that I was telling my friends about my Eddie experiment and what happens! Another Eddie lookalike sits at the table next to us. I am like ok 2nd time is the charm! Rubbing my hands in anticipation of a great feast! Yum Yum! And then his girlfriend shows up 5 minutes later and that is where it is.

So I am left scratching my head. I feel like I am signalling a mixed signal. There is the blissful and happy Eddie vibe but I suspect there is also another strong signal going along. If I just look at circumstance, I suspect the "I am not available and there is no time to be with you and how do I make space for you?" vibe! At least I know that the place to meet them is at my favourite hangouts. LOL!

So here is to releasing that. It is about making the time and space for my Eddie! hehehehehehe. If anything it is fun!

Take care xoxoxoxoxo . . . . . . . will keep you posted!