The version of Truth you follow!

We all have have degrees of judgement within us.  We have the ability to take in what is in front of us, form an opinion based on all that we believe and make a conclusion.  What I truly find fascinating is how judgement to the world, people, situations are all a reflection of how we judge ourselves!  And on a deeper level, how knowing the truth of who we are has such significant influence on the degree of judgement we unleash on ourselves!

So what is this knowing truth mean for us?  Say someone came up to you and told you they thought you were a freak because you had bright blue skin!  Depending on your personality, the more or less bottom line would be to let that judgement bounce right off you as your truth is that your skin is definitely not bright blue so a freak you are not!  That is their issue in what they see and not yours.  Life goes on!  Your truth is strong, simple and unbreakable.  Your skin is not bright blue.  Simple as that!  The world can say what it may . . . . .

Now try on these ones on to see if they fit snuggly!  You are not worthy because your body is not perfect!  Sharing what you think is a sure way to show what an idiot you are!  Having X or Y makes you something!  I sense that for most, this hits a sore spot.  All those perfect bodies we see in magazines and on TV.  The lavish lifestyles of the reality stars we see on TV that  make our lives seem so non glamorous thus not worthy.  The constant comparing, envying the "happy" , "gorgeous" people who get all the luck, the best jobs, the money, the constant admirers and just the good life!

I will admit the above is more subtle and not as clear cut as someone telling you that your skin is bright blue!  But what for me what makes it tricky is that on some level, we have to believe there is an element of truth to it.  That is the only reason for me why we would buy into it, feel crap for not living up to it and end up concluding that we simply just not good enough as we are.

For the unaware, it drives behaviour to meet the goal.  So we diet, or punish our bodies with bad eating, or snip and cut it or simply give up on it and hide away.  When we realise that all we really after is acceptance and approval from ourselves, we have somewhere to start.  Then begins your journey to understand what is your truth.  Then begins your call to trust your truth and live by it.

I have realised that over time, I have come to accept my masculinity a bit deeper as the days go by.  Being gay was probably the easier part.  Feeling that as a man I was worthy was the bigger issue for me.  So judgement of others for me being different hurt.  It hurt so bad because I believed those judgements to be true.  My inner harsh voice, was being amplified and echoed by the outside world. 

It was when I decided to start looking at what it meant to be a man, that I started seeing my value as a person.  That the definition of man handed to me by my parents, my community, even my closest and dearest friends was not the definition that I felt was the one that fitted me.  And so I decided to understand what it meant to be a great man for myself and now that I am getting comfortable with that truth, my judgement of me is lightening up.

So I understand, that to really be ok with being judged means that you get ok with your truth.  By knowing your truth, you love yourself as you are more which really leaves no space for judgement.  I now see how this is applying to the lesson of Wiseman Nos 7.  There is a truth to knowing the beauty of my body.  I am still unpacking it and have my blocks that need my love and patience.  But I get that for me to be loved and accepted physically for who I am, it starts with my willingness to release judgement on my body as it is now.  It is freakin hard and I have soooooo much resistance to releasing it but I see the first step.  The willingness to release the judgement and simply take it from there . . . . . . . . . . . . .
Begin to open the door to knowing your truth.  It goes a long way to help you love yourself and release all that self imposed judgement we can so easily rake up!  At the end of the day, you really need to ask which version of the truth you follow . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . that of your core soul or the world's?

I am the soul that lives within . . . . . .

In honour of dealing with judgement whether self imposed or by the world.  I have found this song for all to enjoy.  I love how it speaks to knowing that all you are is the soul within!  And by knowing that you understand that your soul knows and is truth!  And when you know truth and you have the courage to trust it, JUDGEMENT has no power when up against that truth. . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Acapella ......Surrender.........Symphony

Hearing a song in acapella is interesting.  You can truly appreciate and understand the core message of the song and the core melody.  It's true essence exists or becomes clear when you hear that.  Then add some beat, background instruments, harmonies, chorus and you get an enriched version.  It is rich with rhythm, variety and full of life!  A symphony of perfectly timed beats, choruses, harmonies that collectively create something beautiful.

I have been reminded recently of keeping it simple and clear. Desire at the core of every being can be seen as the acapella melody.  That is your core song, you core desire that you sing.  By keeping that clear and simple and surrendering that to the greatness, intelligence and wisdom that is the Universe, we allow for the enrichment of the melody.  We allow for Universe to help us get to a symphony. 

I dedicate this to the art of surrender and allowing core desire to be met.  It is being open to the result taking you on a surprising journey!

Tit Bit : Life Is Mad!

South Africa is alive and burning with a GEES (spirit), VIBE, ENERGY that is taken on a life of its own. A great one to be honest! One cannot help but be swept up in it.  I am amazed at how the outer is always a reflection of the inner.  I  have soooooo much swimming around in my head and heart that I am not really surprised by what is in my life currently!  All I know for sure at this point that it has something that is connected to being closer to my intuition as well as using it more than I have been.

Professional life is simply mad!  I am soaking in an ocean of "what to do next".  I have delivered my project, lived with a sole purpose professionally for the past year and now that I  have done what I needed to, my mind and heart is scrambling to get the next big thing!  It starts 1st August but who can be in limbo till 1st August?  Certainly not me!

Socially, the World Cup brings so much variety. The city I live in has a new lease on life and it is so awesome just stepping out and enjoying the new energy that has been injected into the city.  Hang out spots have a new life to them and I actually end up having fun wherver I go.  YUM!

I am amazed how I feel lost without a work cause to anchor me but I also have the opportunity to explore life in the midst of what I can safely call a "new city".  I feel like I have stepped into wonderland and instead of focusing on the idea of something new to enjoy, I am stuck with having a professional / work purpose, outcome or bottom line!

I can see how my intuition was never put to good use in my life outside my work.  The idea of staying where I am and simply enjoying where I am needs to soak into my existence.  Also building trust in my instincts in life outside work also needs some loving attention.

There is so much bubbling up, like the cork has been popped and so much is out to be felt and seen.  There is pull to:

• Renovate the bedrooms which builds on a stronger feeling of making my immediate outer world a reflection of my purest/core intentions
• Start studying again and link to something in the Journalism world
• Embrace a new look that I have been toying with
• Attract and build up a strong inner circle of friends in the gay world
• Work on solidifying my confidence in my leadership, thought leadership and my naturally blessed abilities
• Getting to the core of my desire and my blockages when it comes to men.  It is quite a interesting journey that calls for patience!

So there is so much bubbling up which is making life seem mad at the moment.  With all my feeling, I received this snippet the other day which I found to be an interesting read.  Maybe it could help you as it started me thinking of how to utilise the power of my intuition  . . . . . . . .

Enjoy : http://www.oprah.com/spirit/The-Power-of-Your-Intuition/1

xoxo

Song Crush : Happiness!

There has been a shift of late where I craved so much protection to now wanting to step out unprotected to live in my happiness.  With that feeling came my crush on this song.  I just love it!  My favourite set of lyrics include:

"The things that you can give to me, I can feel it when you holding me close, You're like one of the world wonders, I know I'm going under, Come see that I am ready for this, And you're so good for me, You're my true joy!"

The Wiseman Chronicles : Wiseman Nos 7

Also Known As : Mr Sex!

Most Attractive Quality : His most amazing body built solely for enjoyment and the accompanying skill to wow your sexual senses!

Most Adorable Quality : You can let anything slide due to all that outer distraction

He Makes me Feel : Not much, it is all about the physical with him

He Resonates with : The primal side of you!  Pure animal let go and indulge savagely in the pleasures of the flesh!

 

His charm comes from the overwhelming sex appeal that surrounds him.  It is pheromone overload and you lose all rationale and slip into primal mode.  The world is simply rosy around him.  Being intoxicated with all kinds of desire and animal urges, you overlook or let's say get distracted or even just remember one thing about him.  He is sooooooooooo HOT who cares what else is there!

At the Core of Desire:
So when get over all the hormones, pheromones and the outer beauty, at the core of it all, Wiseman Nos 7 brings the experience of Warm, Healing, Beautiful Physical Intimacy . . . . . . . . It is all about the magic of a warm, beautiful touch

Tit Bit : We did it!

 I know I have been MIA of late but had to tend to my day job. I have been on my current project for the past year and when I look back on where I started to where I have ended up, I am amazed and grateful.  I have stayed open, given my best and decided to rely on what came naturally to me versus learning a behaviour.  I realised that when the chips are down and the chaos is in, all you have is what is blessed to you naturally and what you hold inside!

So the Programme I was working on went live on the 1st June 2010.  And by all industry standards, it is a huge success.  It only hit me 2 days later what I had just done.  I played a part in the success and lead a team to make it happen.  My leadership  made a difference!  I was able to steady myself, rely on my instincts in some instances and make decisions that  made the way forward better.

So I am battling to really soak in it as it still seems surreal at times.  I guess that is my lesson in success.  Never underplay or run away from the light of knowing what you have inside made something great happen.  It is still uncomfortable when my team leads tell me how they admire me being younger than them yet being able to have the insight to pull it together for them.  So I try to stand in the success and know that I played an important part.

On the 1st of June I was part of a team that over a long haul of sweat, blood and tears changed the daily working lives of over 8000 people for the better.  I have contributed to the history books of the Industry, my company and my client.  We have overcome challenge, called on our creative forces, stood together, and kept our faith that our work would yield positive results.  That is why I love my day job!  You get called to do the extra-ordinary and you get asked to step up!  Step and give your best!  And for me there is no other way to live than at your best!

So in honour of my success, I turn to the one thing that I have always done, say a few thank you's to:

• The Universe that continues to amaze me with its infinite wisdom, intelligence and possibilities beyond my dreams
• The amazing leadership team I have come to work with at my current project.  They continue to inspire me and it is such an honour to serve the cause with them
• My awesome team.  Their faith and trust in my leadership has kept me honest to give forward my best efforts.  Their ability to rise to the occasion has inspired me to ensure their success
• My support system (The people that matter)!  My parents, my siblings and my friends that have listened, loved me and kept me safe with their honesty, love and belief in me.  You all have kept me strong and open to be in the success!

So as a tribute to this success, I leave you with a song that fits the moment that I am experiencing! Love's Divine!  xoxo