The Cost of Guilt!

The concept of how much does the guilt I carry cost me made itself clear to me in a traffic jam. I had taken a few days off work to just get in touch with me without the work titles, the lifestyle etc I thought that I had given myself enough time to get to the airport and then bam! There it was! Traffic! I was pissed that I was going to have to take a later flight and would have to pay for another ticket. I was right, but what I was pleasantly surprised by was the discovery of the cost my guilt was causing me.


I knew that somehow I attracted this situation of being backed up in traffic and missing my flight. In the midst of my anger, I could see it. I was guilty for wanting a break away from the madness, leaving the ship to be steered by people who were busier than me, going on a lavish holiday which was all about me and being simply self indulgent!

Guilt is a weird feeling. It is drenched in shame, remorse and punishment! That violation of some moral code where you just end up feeling worthless. What is interesting is that to release guilt you have to be willing to release your judgment of what causes you to feel the shame! And judgment is merely a decision you have made on a subject. How wonderful that decisions stem from choice which mean freedom. So it is a willingness to choose a different decision that allows you to release guilt!

I have realized that as much as I am working on this whole attracting Wiseman Nos 7 into my life, that I have a fair share of guilt that I am carrying. I am ashamed of my “potbelly” that I have gained through choice of food to let grow out of control! I was ashamed that I demanded a man with the perfect body when I was nowhere near in that arena in terms of my body. It was when I was willing to say to myself that I was still worth loving with my potbelly that I felt a shift in the guilt I was feeling. The more I was willing to choose to release the judgment that a potbelly equaled not worthy of love, the more I could feel that guilt washing away. I have also realized that I am carrying quite a bit of guilt around my prosperity, my work success and even what I desire for myself. So I am willing to start working on releasing that.

I see now how carrying guilt is a result of how we hold a subject in judgment and as long as we choose to keep that judgment in place, the more we accumulate the cost of carrying that guilt. My guilt for being overweight costs me the ability to share an amazing bond with an amazing man. My guilt for my blessed, prosperous life versus some of the people I love costs me my freedom to truly enjoy my prosperity through lack of time and taking on the burden other’s consequences of their choices. My guilt for wanting to create value beyond the mediocre in my work costs me my trust and faith in others doing their best, so I end up having to overcompensate for what they lack!

What is the cost of the guilt you carry? Are you willing to continue bearing the returns of what you hold onto dearly in terms of judgment?

1)Figure out what bothers you in life 2) Is there guilt or shame or remorse? 3) What judgment do you have on the subject? 4) Are you willing to release it and choose differently to allow the guilt to dissolve . . . . .