Fair Exchange : Romance vs You

Romance can be such a drug!  I can see why.  We as humans crave love and love gets us to experience some intense special out of this world feelings.  Some are great at giving that to themselves and some are not so great at doing that.  So for those who have not mastered giving that to themselves, it is natural that when someone does come along, that they get hooked and crave a constant fix from that person.

In this journey of love and sharing your life with someone, fair exchange exists for me where you own and take responsibility of making yourself happy.  When you can tell that person from your heart that they are off the hook to make you happy, strong and blissful then the terms of engagement are fair from your side of the deal.  The same goes for you expecting that that person take responsibility and does not need you as a drug to make them strong, happy and blissful.

Take at a look at romance and your position to it.  Are lovers off the hook to make you happy and are you off the hook from loved ones to make them happy?  Can they just simply be who they are around you without pressure from you to make them different to make your life better?  Is that the same for you when you deal with them?

Can you both simply just be as you are?

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2011 : LIfe As It Is Now

I have not written one of these in a long time.  Blogging for me is a fine line of what is considered sharing that enriches others versus sharing to misuse this wonderful platform of expression.  So here is some feedback on my life as a result of living through inspired action!

Day by Day I am embracing the theme of Ignite and Burn Brightly.  It is being aware of what brings me pleasure and bliss, what brings me pain and heaviness and shining my flame to that so that I can see it, feel it, deepen my understanding and then simply choose what is next for me!  I feel a definite shift where I am living more each day to deal with what is in front of me and embracing what it allows me to see and choose for my life.  This is allowing shifts and movement in so many areas:

Intimacy : I am finding such a pureness and trueness coming out in my life.  I have found a group of people where I can express the metaphysical side of things.  What a joy!  I am finding that my leadership style is taking on a truer interaction at work.  I am learning and healing in ways I could have never imagined.  I can feel deep down that a space has opened, a vacuum of love, a sacred space where I am more than ok to allow someone to flow into it and be themselves and journey with me.  That is the best way I can describe what I am feeling.

Being of Service : I get that I have lots to learn about me and some concepts before I can truly be effective in this space of giving that adds value to another.  I realise that I have to release a sense of selfishness and the idea that giving of myself depletes me.  So one day, I would like to truly give that empowers and adds value to another's life but until then, I learn and grow my maturity to be in a strong empowered position to do that.

Immediate Environment Supports Desire : I see it more clearly than ever.  I am in a space where the energy of my living spaces impact me that I can start feeling what it does for me.  There is a strong pull to create a beautiful space in the bedroom and a sacred workspace to create!  So I start with some decor and renovation to enable that

Learn A New Craft : I do not believe that I have created a space for this to happen as yet.  I have soooo much going on just settling what is currently on my plate.  So I get the feeling that this will come when it needs to.  I can say that I am back to reading again.  So I am finding reading a pleasure as it used to be before my TV addiction took over!

People That Matter : I have found a that I am getting into a space with people where we can share a positive view on this world.  My conversations are definitely moving to one where we examine our position to life and the subjects.  That is such an empowering way to chat.  The healing and inspiration is amazing from that kind of dialogue.

Feeling What Needs Feeling : I have been up and down on this one.  But I am not as a afraid as I used to be to drop into the feeling and let it be felt.  It is amazing that emotions are just that.  To be felt and then they dissolve and you uncover something very precious that lies beneath them.  I have found some priceless wisdom on how I see the world, the story I tell myself that does not serve me in any way and the opportunity to let it go.

Less Self Conscious, More In The Zone : Shooooo!  The universe is giving me enough opportunity to practice this.  Somedays I am up for it, somedays I run away.  But I am happy that I am more in the space of trying it out more than running away.  That is progress which is such a blessing.  You will be amazed at how this gets in the way of you truly being the moment to soak up all its lessons, understanding and bliss!

The above has allowed my workspace to take me higher and stronger than I could have ever imagined.  The things I get to do are truly amazing.  I will admit that I am blessed when I look at my work and the empowerment and influence I have.  My prosperity is abundant and one where I do not have to worry about like I used to in the past.  My romantic relationships are picking up and that is awesome.  It is about time I got to know some special men and settle with a great one.  My family life is strong and full of love.  I am also more at ease and in love with who is in the mirror and that is probably the biggest blessing I could ask for.

Go Strong and with love
CB

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Some More Lessons From The Dating Scene . . . .

I am still going strong on the dating scene.  It really is a fascinating process.  Sometimes I walk away on a high, sometimes I walk away with that OMG this feels really crap.  But all part of the learning process.  Here are some more lessons from the dating scene in no particular order :

1. We all have a delicious core and when we allow our defenses to come down it is magic when it connects with another core.  The harmony that transpires is unbelievable
2. With an amazing connection, one must look at not defining it immediately and pull out the associated project plan that goes with an amazing connection!  It's pressure your date does not need!
3. Easy going, sharing my life with you and you are off the hook for making me happy are UBER sexy traits to have and show on a date.  The trick is that you must really believe it to make your date believe it
4. Be careful of what is your baggage versus your date's.  Own yours and let them own theirs.  And work on releasing the guilt when they make their pain your work to solve!
5. Start of winter dates are awesome.  The scarfs and fashion you can pull off is UBER sexy!  Yum!
6. There is a natural pace to relationships.  Be brave to embrace the natural pace of what unfolds with your date.  Natural pace is the middle ground between your pace and his pace
7. Sexual Chemistry is one tricky bastard!  If anyone has wisdom on it and it's mysterious workings, please SHARE!
8. Nothing beats a great hair day on a date.  Amen.
9. A vibey place definitely does the trick for venue setting.  You connect to a playful energy that is needed when you getting to know someone
10. Stay honest!  With yourself and your date.  Games and analysis paralysis are for those who love being single!

Have a fab one darlins.

Love

CB

Position Other Than 1 Available . . . . . I'll Take It!

All humans have a priority or value list!  And the way life goes, it is ranked and the world and people are experienced through that.  Experiences happen in life and then you  realise where you rank on the priority list of another.  Your partner makes choices to spend time in other areas and you always seem to not be number 1, when it comes to the crunch and your friend has a choice of who to help, they choose to smooth over another's pain over yours, your parents favour a sibling over you, you give your all at work to be respected and valued but somehow others always get more recognition, opportunity and money than you!

There is enough evidence you can gather on any subject on how you rank up against another's priority list.  The question is do you buy into it and let it control your choices and behaviour?

Simply put, the only priorities or values that need to grab your attention is your current ones!  And how happy you are with their order and how closely you are living them. If that is your life's focus, the rest gets a place that has little to no power over you.  When one is so busy worrying about the next person's success (whether deserving or not) or the next person getting more with "perceiving" them doing less, it is clear that their bigger picture for their life is no longer clear to them!

So the next time you feel the world is a bit unfair or that others are getting so  much more for doing so much less than you, it is life screaming at you to get back in touch with your bigger picture.  And you start by taking a look at your value system and the ranking of that and how it is currently manifested in your life!

You will soon realise that being number 2 on any subject is by your doing and not that of another.  You will also realise when you brave enough that the power and choice lies with you to move up to the number 1 position.

Love
CB

Today Was A Fairytale!

I heard this song the other night and it got me thinking.  Imagine you could every night before going to bed say to yourself "Today was a fairytale"  OMG!  How amazing would that be!

I encourage you to use this song as inspiration and ask yourself, what would life look like to have you say every night that that day was indeed a fairytale?  Hold that feeling, that image, that love for the life that would make you say that.

Now surrender it to the Universe and enjoy the life where you can sing every day with gratitude about how wonderful it is.

Love
CB

Blog Crush : A Slice of Gay Pie: Do we all measure up?

I found this to be a cute and adorable post.  I guess when it comes down to most things in life, when you love it the rest of the world loves it.  It all starts with you loving yourself first.  Enjoy it!

A Slice of Gay Pie: Do we all measure up?: "A graph on the world's cock sizes - from another blog - got me thinking about how much size really matters? Are men suppose to believe..."

Some Things I am Loving . . . . .

There is sooooo much good in life these days that I cannot really contain my excitement and happiness.  It is good to be alive and blessed.  We tend to forget that when we get caught up in life.  Here are some of the moments/experiences/things that have got the deluxe of CrazeeBee love!

Inspired Action - I cannot fully explain this but there comes these moments when all the stars align and everything simply goes your way.  Every word you say, every action you take is effortless, energising and brings back more than expected.  It is like you are plugged into something amazing that is simply making it all unfold in a wonderful way.  I have had some of those experiences of late and I must say they are delicious!

Someone that asks for your advice and you see the difference it makes in their life! - This is probably the most highest compliment a person or life can bring you.  When someone comes to you for advice and you share it.   Then you witness how they have applied it and how they have blossomed and grown into something better and stronger than what they were.  Precious!

Facials - I have gotten back into facials.  What was I thinking taking a break from them in the first place. I love how beautiful you feel with that skin that feels like it is glowing!








Supernatural Series 5 - Yum Yum Yum!  I have finally got my hands on it.  I will admit for the first couple of series I was a serious Dean camp but in season 4, Sam in all his darkness drew me in.  So now I am a fully fledged Sam camp.  Go sexy!  He is delicious though.

Winter is a coming - Winter is on it's way to South Africa.  Although I was born in heart of winter, I also am not a fan of freezing weather but a HUGE fan of winter fashion!  It is gorgeous and I am excited to see what is out for this winter.  Yay!

It's Coming Over Me Like It's Coming Over You

There is something so inviting about this song.  Have you ever just sat and watched waves in action.  They build up and crash and sweep away.  If you in the middle of all that and just let go and let the waves take over you, what a ride that would be.  This is what this song can make one feel.

For me, it speaks to a feeling of giving in and riding the wave.  Being in this space of allowing someone to flow into me and me into them.  This song appeals so much to me where you simply go with the flow of getting to know a person, make that first call or even just say hello to that person you have liked for sooo long but never had the courage to say a word to.

Celebrate the giving into inspired action!  When the stars align and all that is needed is that you action in an effortless and energizing way.  I recently had one of those moments where everything simply aligned and all I had to do was go on instinct and every word, action I did was harmonious.  Yum!

This song celebrates that sentiment for me.  Enjoy!

Bless Rugby Players : Stefan Terblanche

Got a chance to watch the Sharks and the Crusaders fight it out on the field the other day.  And Stefan just stood out for me.  He is Yum Yum.  Just loved the way he worked the field.  Big and Strong! Go Stefan!

There Is A Space For You

There is a space deep in my heart

All welcoming with no expectation

All warm and safe

It is this space where freedom is known and felt

Where you can flow into me

Where I can flow into you

Where we can go on adventure

To deepen understanding and wisdom

To feel deeply, to express honestly and safely

To Be As We Are

In this now

I feel it

I embrace it

I live it

This Vacuum of Space

That Vibrates with Love

It's for you

Welcome

                                                                            - by Crazeebee Livin

Blog Crush : LifeLube: VIDEO: Poet Yolo Akili Asks, "Are You the Kind of...

I have my "sister" issues I need to work through.  The post below both inspired and scared me!  It is  simple question yet a powerful one.

Would You Date Yourself?

The answer you give speaks volumes of what you putting out there!


LifeLube: VIDEO: Poet Yolo Akili Asks, "Are You the Kind of...: "Would you date yourself? Are you masculine enough? Do you find yourself worthy? An object of your own lust? Thanks ..."

Your Story That Needs Telling!

We have all been there.  Someone belts out harsh words our way and they stick!  They cut through and hurt us like hell.  We get offended, defensive or angry when we think about what that person has said to us.  It happened to me a few days back.  The words stuck to my heart like thorns and boy did it hurt.

I had a thought though.  It hurts because there is an element of truth in what was said.  Deep down, if you really honestly looked inside, you would see that you do believe whatever was said.  So an idea could be that on some level it is a truth that you have not been confronting or shining a light on to decide your next step.  So life does what it does best.  It finds a way for you to hear your truth to either embrace it or release it!  And all so you can take the next step to take you closer to that better life.

So the next time someone says something you find offensive or hurtful, it may just be a story that needs telling that you carry deep inside you.  Why do you maybe need to hear it?

Well I believe, that it creates an opportunity for you to choose!  Choose whether to continue carrying that story or choose to embrace a different perspective or view by releasing what you currently hold.  A hurtful person may just be life's way to help shine a light on the stories you hold dear and deep that do not serve you.

A thought . . . . . . . . . .

Love
CB

Bless Rugby Players - Jaco Pretorius

I was at the Vodacom Bulls versus the DHL Stormers the other day.  Firstly, sooooo awesome watching rugby live.  It takes me back to my younger days when my dad was a big time rugby player and we would go support his team.  So I could not take my eye off the Blue Bulls player number 13 during the game.  I give you the yummy Blue Bulls player Jaco Pretorius!

Kurt and Blaine Kiss on Glee

Glee has not hit SA shores as yet but blessings to YouTube.  I had to share this from one of my favourite blogs.  I am sooooooooo happy that this has finally happened and it is just the sweetest thing.  Yay!

I am in this space of embracing the pureness and deepness that teenage love brings.  We have all been there.  We know how deep we felt, how intense and how wonderful it all was.  Teenage love reminds me of us not losing the innocence and deepness that comes from being in that wonderful position to understand yourself and another person on a deeper level.

Enjoy the moment!

Fair Exchange : Relationships vs You : Who Owns the Work?

This has been a big lesson of late for me.  How do you hold people accountable around you?  How strong are you with filtering the real issue when dealing with other people?  For my life, I have see how this adds extra complexity and stress when I take on someone else's issue and solve it for them.  I am seeing how time is being  drained from my week to solve the problems of others which at the end of the day, does not help that person nor myself.  They do not learn how to own their happiness and get aligned to the flow of their life and I am left frustrated for neglecting myself.

This is something big to get for me!  That it is ok to allow people to figure out what they need to do for themselves to make themeselves better, happier or stronger.  It will never be my job to control or take action for another's life and what they need to do to make it work.

So be aware of where you take on the "work" of making someone else happier, more at peace or keeping them together.  It is important to inspire their action rather than take it on and do it for them.  You end up with no time for you, for what makes you happy and keeps you sane.

So Today, make the choice to take on the work for your life and leave the rest where it belongs.  The responsibility of the other person to seek happiness for their life!